Hi folks.
It’s Monday.
It’s almost Spring.
It’s almost Easter.
Let’s get down to business.
We are wasting NO time.
I’m also wasting NO time in eating an entire pack of SweetTarts ropes.
Cherry flavor of course.
Literally my sugar fix for the entire week.
And now I’m snacking on salty pretzels.
Anyone else have after 10pm snack cravings?
Just me?
I hope not.
I digress.
Shocker.
I smile.
A lot.
But have you ever wondered what is behind the smile?
I was just recently watching The Mary Tyler Moore Show because you know I LOVE my classic TV shows.
And the lyrics to the theme song go like this:
Who can turn the world on with her smile?
Who can take a nothing day, and suddenly make it all seem worthwhile?
Well it’s you girl, and you should know it
With each glance and every little movement you show it
Love is all around, no need to waste it
You can have the town, why don’t you take it
You’re gonna make it after all
You’re gonna make it after all!
How will you make it on your own?
This world is awfully big, girl this time you’re all alone
But it’s time you started living
It’s time you let someone else do some giving
The lyrics tell me I can turn the world on with my smile.
CHECK.
The lyrics tell me I’m going to make it after all.
CHECK.
The lyrics tell me it’s time to let someone else do some giving.
CHECK.
But the song doesn’t tell me about all the shit I have to encounter on the daily and keep at bay.
What the heck Mary Tyler Moore?!
Why didn’t you warn me?!
What is behind the smile that all of you see each and every week.
Well, let me tell you.
Behind the smile is a frustration with people at my church who are trying to knock it down off its feet.
There are SO many people who are working their asses (pardon my language) off to keep the ministries alive and well for ALL to appreciate in our community, yet there are stubborn butt nugget people whose asshole and stick up their butt energy really does a good job to deflate the positive energy and smile at times.
KNOCK IT OFF.
I’m honestly sick of it.
Take your tumor infecting energy somewhere else.
Seriously.
It is exhausting.
And you know what else?
The state of this world.
It honestly makes me sick.
And the journey to November is not going to be one that I will enjoy.
And there are going to be several individuals in my life who I will not agree with.
And it will be deflating to try and keep a smile on my face.
Nope.
Not done yet.
Honestly, there are days when I feel like I’m living inside the script of a Lifetime romantic comedy movie.
And it is hard for me to remember to guard the heart above all else.
My friends at work are probably reading this very sentence and saying, “I told you so.”
It’s hard.
I get carried away, excited, and the imagination takes flight to the fairytale ending.
I know.
This isn’t Disney Princess land.
You ask what another song is that I’m feeling right now in life?
Well, here it is:
Just change the HAZEL line to BLUE.
Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it, can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Anyhoo, I will be here.
Like I always have been.
For as long as I can remember.
Here to support you.
Here to listen to you.
Here to be the punching bag.
Here to be the silent individual who sometimes gets by with saying zero words.
I’ll be here.
Just trying to live out my life with a smile on my face.
Despite the asshole energy/or pain that tries to engulf the world around me.
I’m tired of that shit.
Sprinkle sunshine always,
JP!
Mr. Sunshine Smiles 