Hi folks!
It’s here!
Post 300!
And the last day of the month!
WOOOOOOO!
A blogging journey that started back in 2018. And here we are, 300 posts later.
I can’t begin to thank each and every one of YOU for coming back week after week to read my words and share the passion, inspiration, love, and kindness with others around you.
That honestly means so much and I can’t thank you enough.
Thank you for taking this journey with me, growing with me, learning with me, laughing with me, crying with me, and experiencing every emotion with me.
I hope that you will continue to follow along on the journey for years to come (as long as I keep writing). It can be tough some weeks.
How many times did I say thank you already?? I only just started.
Goodness gracious me.
Anyway, let’s get down to business.
Post 300!
Here we are!
WOOOOOOO!
Oh wait. I already said that.
Travel down memory lane with me for a few moments.
Back in 2016, I was selected as part of a running relay team for something called The Hope Express.
During something called “Runner’s Weekend,” the organizers of The Hope Express picked a song for each individual with a little backstory.
The song that was chosen for me was called “Dig A Little Deeper” from the Disney movie, The Princess and The Frog.
Before that weekend, it was both a song and movie I had not heard of, but now, almost 10 years later, I’m obsessed with both.
The movie AND the song.
If you haven’t seen the movie, it is definitely one you should watch some time–it will hit every emotion for you.
And as for the song, I will share the lyrics below, but it will also hit every emotion for you.
The song was literally and I mean LITERALLY (in all caps) written for Mr. Sunshine.
So, where am I going with all of this?
Well, stick with me folks!
You’ve done if for 299 posts before this one.
Time to shift gears and side track for just a few moments.
Since starting my work with Ryan (The Fitness Alchemist) three years ago, the term “dig deep” is one that has come up time and time again, especially since the beginning of 2025.
Ryan has continued to challenge me to look inward at myself and in the first three months of 2025, I’ve done more inward looking at myself than in the last seven years of this blogging journey!
Maybe even more than I’ve ever done in my entire life!
In my digging a little deeper moments, I’ve learned the following about myself:
First, I struggle with feelings of being left out/not getting invites for things. I’ve connected this back to the trauma that I experienced in middle school and high school because I wasn’t popular enough to be invited to what we would describe as the “cool kids” houses and events. Making this realization has helped me to direct this energy to other facets of life–book reading, coloring, and journaling to name a few. This is also where the theory of let them has come in handy. It can still be nice to get the invite because that means people are thinking about you (even if you need to decline). Learning how to take any negative energy inside that comes from these valid feelings of being left out and redirecting it has been crucial.
Second, I have a very real fear of friendships that I share in my life (ones I’ve had for many years), falling apart at the drop of a hat. And with the theme of digging a little deeper, I have been able to circle this back to the experience that I have witnessed with my parents as close friends from their days growing up are no longer (well very little) in their life. They would have card game nights, dinner nights, and chats about life with all the kids and happenings to stay caught up, but now it almost seems like radio silence. At times, it can feel like my being gay is what might have caused this couple to distance themselves from my parents. I love my parents so much, so seeing this happen in real-time pains my heart. I understand friendships can change. No matter how loyal of an individual you might be to others, never forget to guard your own heart. But also, to add to that, never give up hope that forgiveness can go a long way and what might have been lost previously in friendship could be found again.
In another moment of digging a little deeper, I have been able to understand what triggers in life create negative energy and toxic behaviors from my body. Whether it is political content that I don’t agree with or feeling thoughts of not looking good enough when see beautiful looking men with gorgeous bodies posing in their swimsuits, I’ve been able to pinpoint these moments, how they make my brain feel, and have learned how to mitigate it. I have become a lot more in tune with “muting” content on social media that isn’t healthy for me or doesn’t vibe with my energy and learning to be ok with it. LET THEM. I deleted Snap Chat for 30 days because I found myself engaging in behavior that wasn’t necessarily healthy or good for me. And I can say that it really isn’t something I miss. Social media can be an extremely toxic place, so I urge all of you to find your triggers and learn how to mute or eliminate the content to keep your mental health in a good space.
ELIMINATE to ELEVATE.
Digging deep means thinking back to the moments of shame, rejection, and being made of that came with growing up gay. The jocks who laughed in my face, the school classmates who gawked at how I dressed, the people in life who said being gay was not okay and threw Bible verses in my face. Those moments don’t go away. They are played over in my head constantly. It’s like a damn merry-go-round that feels impossible to get off of.
But these constant replay moments of the rejection and shame have allowed me to look inward (and guess what—DIG DEEP) while discovering my inner voice. The inner voice that has made the process of vocalizing thoughts and opinions in a productive way easier than ever before.
Ever since my little meltdown back at the end of October, I have learned how to speak up about things, say no when something doesn’t feel right, and making sure my battery has the time it needs to recharge. Finding my voice and fuel for recharge has been life-changing.
The world is a chaotic place.
We all have triggers and traumas.
And we all have to learn how to dig a little deeper to learn about those triggers and traumas and to keep our mental health, spiritual health, physical health, and self-love health at the top of their game.
Just a few weeks ago, an African Violet that was gifted to me by a coworker last year for my birthday (thank you, Johannah) started to bloom.
It is the first plant I’ve had in Sunshine Studio that I’ve been able to nurse and keep alive with sunshine, hydration, and love. What a combo.
TRUE story. (It honestly is probably the only plant I’ve been able to keep alive. Period.)
And for me, that bloom is a sign and symbol that I see as new life and new growth.
For me.
Mr. Sunshine.
Who has started to dig a little deeper in these last months and looks forward to doing more of it in the coming months.
And who is encouraging YOU to do the same.
Focus on what and who is in front of you.
And don’t forget to give yourself sunshine, hydration, and love.
Dig a little deeper.
Learn about your triggers and learn from your traumas.
Let’s continue this journey together.
Sprinkle sunshine always,
JP!
Dig A Little Deeper Lyrics:
Don’t matter what you look like
Don’t matter what you wear
How many rings you got on your finger
We don’t care, no, we don’t care
Don’t matter where you come from
Don’t even matter what you are
A dog, a pig, a cow, a goat
Had ’em all in here (we had ’em all in here)
And they all knew what they wanted
What they wanted me to do
I told ’em what they needed
Just like I be telling you
You gotta dig a little deeper
Find out who you are
You gotta dig a little deeper
It really ain’t that far
When you find out who you are
You’ll find out what you need
Blue skies and sun shine
Guaranteed
You gotta dig (dig)
You gotta dig (dig)
Prince Froggy is a rich little boy
You wanna be rich again
That ain’t gonna make you happy now
Did it make you happy then? No
Money ain’t got no soul
Money ain’t got no heart
All you need is some self-control
Make yourself a brand new start
You gotta dig a little deeper
Don’t have far to go
You gotta dig a little deeper
Tell the people mama told you so
Can’t tell you what you’ll find
Maybe love will grant you a peace of mind
Dig a little deeper and you’ll know
Miss Froggy, might I have a word?
You’s a hard one, that’s what I heard
Your daddy was a loving man
Family through and through
You your daddy’s daughter
What he had in him you got in you
You gotta dig a little deeper
For you it’s gonna be tough
You gotta dig a little deeper
You ain’t dug this far enough
Dig down deep inside yourself
You’ll findd out what you need
Blue skies and sunshine
Guaranteed
Open up the window
Let in the light, dearie
Blue skies and sunshine
Blue skies and sunshine
Blue skies and sunshine
Guaranteed