Mr. Sunshine Smiles

Happy Monday, folks!

Here we are with the start of another week in June.

And officially just a few days away from the first official day of Summer, which happens to be June 20th.

And Mother Nature is certainly going to pack a punch with some extreme heat this week.

That means…

Get your AC thermostats adjusted, fans warmed up, and ice cube trays filled…well…that is if you are old fashioned like me and don’t have an ice maker incorporated into your fridge appliance.

Anyhoo, it’s time to get down to some serious business.

For those who may not know (and for those who do already know, here is your refresher), but June is gay pride month.

The official month where we get to celebrate ALL of those that are part of the LGTBQ+ community.

But this year, I have to admit that there have been more moments that I’ve experienced in the past where I feel more scared, unsure, and unsafe.

The year is 2024.

Why is this still a reality that we have to walk out our doors and experience?

Also, real talk for a second.

Like true honesty.

With the way that the political climate is looking for later this year in November, I can also say that I’m scared.

I’m fearful.

I’m frightened.

I’m nervous.

And that’s the honest truth.

The other week, when I was working at my part-time job at the theater, I had to park my car pretty far away in the parking lot because of it being full with guests attending the pool.

I happened to be wearing a romper that evening (which is an adult onesie basically) and during the intermission of the production, I decided to go move my car closer to the theater building for when we would lock up the building and leave (which would be closer to 11:30pm).

But, when I started to walk toward my car, I noticed several large pick-up trucks and what I would refer to as some very straight men in parking spaces by my car.

I stopped in my tracks, turned around, and walked back into the theater.

I didn’t feel safe or comfortable enough to walk to my car in the romper because I was fearful that those men would either make remarks verbally or even physically. You just never know these days.

And with some of the stuff that I’ve experienced in the past, I think moments like this cause the trigger in my brain to relive those traumas.

I felt defeated.

I am someone who is super comfortable in my skin and with my sexuality, but in that moment, I failed myself.

Have any of you ever had a moment in your life where you didn’t feel comfortable or safe just because of the type of outfit you were wearing?

Or to expand on this, have you ever had a moment where you felt unsafe or comfortable because you love someone of the same sex?

Well, I have.

And I continue to experience these moments.

And I will never fully be able to share the true trauma or feelings it makes the mind feel because it is something that you can only understand if you experience it first-hand.

And, many of you reading this will never have the opportunity to experience these moments.

Latst week, while on vacation, my girlfriends and I decided to travel to Atlantic City to experience some casino games and dinner.

And, naturally because I was tan from a few days at the beach, I wanted to show off that brown skin as much as possible.

So, I was thinking about wearing white shorts.

But then, as I sat and stared at the closet of clothes I had brought to wear, I decided against the white shorts because of the feeling that I had in my mind that I would not feel safe wearing them in a place like Atlantic City.

Another moment of defeat for me because the world around me chastises the choices I make for who I love.

Yesterday, at The Ephrata Performing Arts Center, I had the pleasure and honor of participating in a staged reading play called The Temperamentals.

“Temperamental” was code for “homosexual” in the early 1950’s, part of a created language of secret words that gay men used to communicate. The play tells the story of two men–the communist Harry Hay and the Viennese refugee and designer Rudi Gernreich–as they fall in love while building the first gay rights organization in the pre-Stonewall United States.

I got to play the character of Rudi Gernreich and had the opportunity to work alongside some other talented men to bring this production to life.

A brief synopsis that I found on Broadway.com explains the play as the below:

“Set in the early 1950s, The Temperamentals is the true story of the founding of The Mattachine Society, one of the earliest gay activism groups in the United States. Created by Communist and social radical Harry Hay and famed fashion designer Rudi Gernreich, the underground organization came together secretly, building its membership through various forms of covert communication during a time when nearly all homosexuals were closeted. The play explores the trials of the society’s founding fathers as they risked their lives and livelihoods to gain equality. More than just a history play, the show is also a love story, detailing the romance of odd couple Hay and Gernreich as their passion for their cause and each other grew.”

And even though the play takes place in the 1950’s, it was haunting to read and perform scenes of material that are still incredibly relevant (if not even more so today) than they were back in the 50’s.

This reality that I performed yesterday with these men is something that myself (and so many others in this world) are living in 2024.

The fear is real.

It is painful to write words for you that involve the topic of me still having moments of fear on the daily.

It hurts my soul and heart to write that sometimes when I leave the front door in the morning that I have a thought in my brain of what bad could happen to me throughout the day because of who I love.

The rainbow is often a sign of hope for many.

The rainbow is also a sign that causes so much polarization, hatred, and disdain in people around the world.

Those colors of the rainbow are something that our Country needs to work harder at protecting for those who identify with them.

Hope, love, and safety are feelings that ALL should be able to experience.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, hey there folks!

And happy Monday, June 10th to all of you!

Thank you for being patient as I took last week off from blogging.

But, this week I’m back in full swing ready to write some words for you!

So, thank you for continuing to come back and follow along!

Let’s get down to business.

Travel back with me to 3/30/23…

I happened to be in an afternoon meeting with my team at Webstaurantstore when I received a text message from an 818 number.

Naturally, not knowing who it was, I opened it and almost peed my pants (well maybe I did a little) from excitement! The text read:

“Hi JP! My name is Felicia and I am a Casting Associate Producer at Wheel of Fortune. We received your application! I know it’s been a while, so if you are still interested in being considered, please give us a call back ASAP to go through some preliminary questions.”

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

I of course am still interested.

Funny thing about this moment is that I messaged one of my coworkers on Teams about looking up the individual to ensure it wasn’t a joke. Because…funny story…many, many years ago I played a joke on people stating I had an audition for Wheel of Fortune when I really didn’t.

But, low and behold, everything checked out.

I excitedly told my teammates in the meeting and called the number to talk with Felicia and answer some questions.

I scheduled a virtual Zoom audition for April 3rd.

The day of the audition, I was SWEATING.

Literally. SWEATING.

I got to audition with two other ladies where we played practice toss up puzzles and had the opportunity to talk about ourselves as if we were talking to Pat.

Then, after that, we were put in individual rooms where we were given 16 puzzles in 4 categories. Select letters were already showing and we had to solve as many as possible!

What an exciting rush.

I don’t remember a whole lot from that day except feeling like I did pretty good with everything and being told by Alex (the wonderful contestant coordinator lady who auditioned me) telling me that we would hear possibly in a few weeks or months.

Great, sounded perfect.

Well, weeks and months past.

I eventually kind of gave up hope to be honest.

Then, out of the blue, on March 25, I received another text message that read:

“Hi JP! This is Lauren, the Contestant Manager from Wheel of Fortune! I sent you an email regarding a status update. When you have a moment, please take a look and reply. Look forward to hearing from you.”

I was leaving work at the Lititz Apothecary and went to my car to read the email.

I SCREAMED.

Legit left out a high pitched girl scream.

The email asked if I was available to come to Los Angeles for a taping in a week.

I immediately called both Marissa and my mom to share the exciting news and sent a few texts.

I was DYING.

After almost a year, it felt like my dream was coming true.

Marissa and I booked our flights, got hotel reservations confirmed, and realized that this childhood dream of mine was in fact becoming a reality.

For the next week, I continued to watch old episodes on Pluto TV while having my coworkers quiz me with the daily desktop puzzle calendar I have.

The reality still wasn’t hitting me.

Even as I was flying on the plane to LA, it seemed…unreal.

Oh…did I mention that I was told I would get to be part of Pat Sajak’s FINAL WEEK OF HOSTING WHEEL OF FORTUNE AFTER 41 YEARS?!

Because…yeah…that was also a thing.

INSANE.

The Thursday included a brief walk to Olive Garden across from our hotel, a few naps, dinner at the restaurant in the hotel, and some sleep before the big taping day.

I woke up early to shower, prep, and get myself ready.

I was sweating SO bad that I actually asked Marissa to dry my armpits with a hair dryer.

That is a true story.

I got in an Uber and made my way to the studio.

I had the pleasure of meeting other contestants that were invited out to the studio to tape and after about 30 minutes, we were taken into the Jeopardy studio where we would spend a majority of the day.

When I walked in, I had the opportunity to hug Alex (who was the contestant coordinator who auditioned me) who mentioned that they had held on to me for almost a year for this week.

The love I felt in that moment was surreal.

We were told that all of us were hand-picked for this week because of our auditions, so the feeling in my soul was so surreal.

We were briefed on the rules of the game and had our chance to get hair and make-up done with some fabulous people.

Vanna White also snuck in to give us a little pep talk and reminded us to buy our vowels.

We walked over to the studio for Wheel of Fortune to see the set for the first time of this final week and all of us were in awe.

It was beautiful.

Also, fun fact…

The wheel is 2400lbs!

Which is why we get multiple opportunities to spin it.

Everyone has the chance to play a practice round and spin the wheel around each other as we cheer, clap, and smile.

It was unreal.

Then, we made our way back to the Jeopardy set where we were told who would be playing what game.

I heard my name called for Game 3 with Nonie and Allison.

IT’S HAPPENING!

I got to sit in the audience and cheer on my fellow colleagues and contestant friends until it was time to head back to get touch up on our hair and make-up.

(I also had to freshen up my deodorant because I literally couldn’t stop sweating). Good thing my green velvet blazer would get to cover that all on TV.

After the final touches, we were brought out to the studio where we got to our spots and were told by Stage Manager, Jimmy to have fun and enjoy the moments.

SO true.

It is the quickest 22 minutes of your life.

BUT WHAT A THRILL.

And even though I didn’t come in first, I got to show America my personality and I played a DAMN good game.

I solved every single toss up puzzle and walked away with a total of $14,000–just $400 short of the winner, Allison.

Honestly, I still don’t feel like this whole thing is real.

I was on national TV.

WHAT?!

When am I getting my talk show contract?!

JK JK JK JK…

…Although kind of not really.

I can’t even begin to describe how thankful and grateful I am to have had the opportunity for this once-in-a-lifetime experience.

I thank every single person who had a hand in this journey for me and all the love and support that I felt before, during, and after the experience.

It is humbling to say the least.

This MOMENTOUS OCCASION was better than being a DANCE CHAPERONE, more delicious than a SUPERFOOD SMOOTHIE, and something I thought was REALLY FAR AWAY until I discovered I’M HALFWAY THERE and WITHIN WALKING DISTANCE to this childhood dream and experience I will never soon forget.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, hi there folks!

Here we are again.

Another Monday in May.

Only one more to go after this…and it is a holiday one too!

Who doesn’t love a long, holiday weekend?!

Let’s hope that Mother Nature decides to give us sunshine to celebrate!

Because she has been giving us plenty of rain recently.

And quite honestly, we could use a change of pace from the gloominess.

Well, let’s get down to business.

Oh, and by the way, welcome to post 265!

WOO!!

That is a lot of posts!

So, if you have been with me since the beginning of this blogging journey, I thank you.

If you are just joining me, I thank you.

If you read here and there, I thank you.

If you find yourself journeying over to my words when you are lost, I thank you.

If you are someone that comes back faithfully week after week, I thank you.

My hope is that these posts deliver some type of joy, sunshine, and positive energy that invigorates your soul to feel good.

Well, let’s get down to business with this post 265!

Last week, I shared two definitions with you in my words. They were the words of anxiety and comfort.

This week, I share two more definitions with you.

Nostalgia:
-A sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations

Childhood:
-The state of being a child

Right now, with the state of the world and all the shit that is happening, there are times where I like to find myself delving into the nostalgia of childhood.

They are moments that allow me to escape from the reality of the world and give myself warm fuzzy feelings to keep pushing forward.

Here are some of my favorite things to indulge in with the wonder of childhood nostalgia.

1. Drinking a can of Sunkist orange soda
   -I don’t know what it is about orange soda, but sipping it always brings out my inner child. To me, orange soda just screams nostalgia.
2. Watching The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh
   -Even at the age of 36, watching this movie still makes me laugh and giggle, especially the blustery day portion. And cuddling up to this movie with a blanket on the couch gives me all the wonder of childhood nostalgia.
3. Eating Stouffer’s frozen macaroni and cheese
   -Each time I have a tray of this Mr. Sunshine indulgence, I often think about sleepovers I had at my Grandma Neidermyer’s house growing up. This was always something that I could count on as a meal as we sat and watched different cooking shows on The Food Network. She was definitely a Stouffer’s lady too, especially with getting older and not finding energy to cook much.
4. Watching episodes of The Brady Bunch
   -This always brings me back to the childhood memory of watching this TV show with my family during the Summer on Nickelodeon when they did “Nick at Nite” theme weekday blocks of classic TV shows. It was the best. Miss those days.
5. Sleeping on the couch
   -While I don’t sleep on the couch much anymore, the times when I do remind me of the moments when I had sleepovers in the living room with my mom. I would sleep in a sleeping bag on the floor and we would watch classic TV shows. The one I remember the most is The Mary Tyler Moore Show. This was probably the only time in my life when I enjoyed being in a sleeping bag!

Being able to have these moments of escaping into the wonder of childhood nostalgia are glorious and wonderful.

Never letting go of your inner child is oh so important.

With all of the darkness that surrounds us on the daily in the world, it makes it even more important to have these moments of slipping into nostalgic childhood memories.

Take a moment.

Look at yourself in the mirror.

And find within your heart the wonder of childhood nostalgia.

The warm fuzzy feelings are waiting for you.

Capture them.

Escape to them.

And relish in them.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Happy Monday, folks! 

And happy belated Mother’s Day as well to all mothers, caregivers, and supporters of the world: past, present, and future! 

Well, let’s get right into it.

Shall we? 

The Dictionary defines the word anxiety as the following: 

-Distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune

-Earnest but tense desire

-A state of apprehension and psychic tension occurring in some forms of mental disorder

On the flip side, the Dictionary defines the word comfort as the following: 

-To soothe console, or reassure, bring cheer to

-To make physically comfortable

-To aid; support or encourage

If you’re anything like me, you probably have been feeling anxiety at a multitude of things, especially when you look at the world around me. 

In fact, there are things right outside our door–locally that are causing those feelings of distress and uneasiness of mind that are caused by fear of danger or misfortune.

Anxiety seems to be on the menu everywhere.

Literally everywhere. 

Anxiety is me.

Anxiety is you.

Anxiety is all of us. 

But with that anxiety, comes the feeling of comfort. 

I’ll take about seven helpings of that.

Please and thank you.

Where might I find comfort these days? 

Well, here is the current Mr. Sunshine list of comfort: 

1. Regardless of old I get or what time I end up lying vertical on my bed, I still continue to make sure every night ends with episodes of watching The Golden Girls. It is a time where I get to be in the space of my room with my weighted blanket as the voices of Blanche, Rose, Sophia, and Dorothy are heard in the background.
2. Squeezing Rocky. Rocky is my adult Squishmallow raccoon that I get to squeeze tightly in times when I need that little extra feeling of comfort.
3. Working out at the gym. It is time in my life where I get to release toxins, decompress, and also build up my body to become stronger in worlds of physicality and mentality.
4. Using the support system of friends and family when I need some extra love, support, guidance, encouragement, and comfort. Friends and families that you can laugh with and enjoy time with doing whatever can be some of the greatest comforts this world can offer us.
5. Mashed potatoes and ice cream. No joke. It’s comfort food. And it’s not an everyday thing. Moderation is key. 

Be real.

Be vulnerable.

Be genuine.

Anxiety is a real word.

It is a real thing that many of us have experienced, are currently experiencing, or will experience in the future. 

It is also called being human.

And it’s ok if you are dealing with it. 

You are not alone. 

Let’s talk about it. 

Together.

But more importantly, let’s find comfort in it.

Together.

I hope you find your very own Rocky the raccoon squishmallow to squeeze. 

Because comfort is something we all could use an extra spoonful of.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, hello folks!

Here we are…another May Monday!

And post 263.

Time is FLYING BY TOO FAST.

That is an emergency.

Just kidding.

Not really an emergency…but cray cray honestly.

For those of you who may have not been following my social media, I have been GLUED to the TV watching episodes of the show, 911.

I started with Season 7 on Hulu since that was what came up on my homepage when I logged in, but I started from Season 1 earlier this week.

I’m officially now through Season 3.

And all I can say is…

DAMN.

Like.

DAMN.

I have never cried so much at a show before.

And I’m not talking just like tears.

I’m talking like full on BLUBBER works with the water.

I don’t think I’ve ever been through so many emotions watching a 45 minute drama on TV.

Grey’s Anatomy didn’t even make me blubber this much.

So honestly, 911 is a show that I HIGHLY recommend.

5 stars.

A++.

It isn’t even a show that I’ve had to look away from or put a hand in front of my eyes.

LIKE WHAT?!

That is unheard of…especially with anything blood.

“911, what’s your emergency?”

Have you ever asked yourself that question?

Have you ever heard that on the other line?

I will never EVER forget the time I had to call 911 when my dad was choking.

I was the one in the family that stayed calm (imagine that).

I remember the ambulance pulling up our driveway without sirens and lights.

I remember our neighbors at the time walking over to ask what was happening.

I remember visiting my dad in the hospital and not fully knowing what was going on.

I remember making a Facebook status asking for prayers and good thoughts.

It is like it happened yesterday.

Have any of you ever had a moment like that where it lives in your brain like it was just yesterday?

“911, what’s your emergency?”

Have you ever pictured yourself as to how you would be in the event of an actual emergency?

Would you stay calm?

Would you freak out?

What is the emergency that you are feeling in your life currently?

Do you feel powerless?

It’s ok.

I have been there.

The world right now and its current state sometimes make me feel powerless.

The way that I say “yes” to more than I can actually chew off can make me feel powerless.

May is mental health awareness month.

I need each and every one of you to figure out what makes you feel powerless.

I need each and every one of you to figure out how to say YES to yourself.

I need each and every one of you to figure out how to become stronger–mentally, physically, and emotionally.

This past weekend was one of the first weekends in a long time where I had no extra curriculars to involve myself in.

And it was glorious.

The weather was rainy.

Which means…it was cozy.

And I got puppy cuddles from my parents’ dog Ginger along with lots of episodes of 911.

It wasn’t only cozy.

It was GLORIOUS.

It was a moment where I could look outside the windows at the rain falling–and hear it to create a moment of peace and perfection.

A moment where I could wash away any powerless moments I was feeling.

“911, what’s your emergency?”

Are you in the midst of one?

Are you feeling powerless?

Give yourself GRACE.

Give yourself STRENGTH.

And realize that taking time for yourself to get away from the cray cray crazy of the world is not a sign of weakness.

It is in fact, a sign of strength.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well folks, here we are again.

Yet another Monday of the April month.

And we are only just a few days away from the month of May.

Which means Summer is like tomorrow.

And Christmas won’t be far behind.

How can we get Father Time to slow down?!

If you have any suggestions about how to do that, I will gladly hear you out.

Anyhoo, let’s get down to business.

Grab your favorite Spring beverage, open the windows for that fresh air, cuddle up with a blanket, and read on!

A little over a year ago, I started work with Ryan Chalfant…also known as The Fitness Alchemist.

And during one of our very first video calls, we talked about the imagery of stepping stones through portals.

And this past week during our video call, the imagery and discussion of stepping stones leading to portals came up again.

It was a beautiful conversation that lead to goosebumps and chills for both of us.

Just over a year ago, I decided to take charge and hold myself accountable for my gym journey of fitness.

And I have stuck to that promise and stepped on the stones to a better body of muscle building.

Just over a year ago, I made the choice to sell Sunshine Cottage and move back to Lititz for some apartment life.

They were the stepping stones through a portal that led to a fresh new start at Sunshine Studio while being closer to my family, jobs, church, and all the things that keep me feeling fulfilled.

About a year ago, I had an official Zoom audition for my favorite game show of all time, Wheel of Fortune.

The was a stepping stone through a portal that had been in the making for YEARS with all the audition applications and videos I had created.

And more about that portal will be coming in a few weeks…

Which means…

STAY TUNED!

Over the past year, I’ve made efforts to be more honest and have even more fun with those closest to me trying to indulge in every single moment of quality time.

And with those stepping stones, I’ve gone through the portal of quality time with my own self.

That’s right.

Date nights with myself.

They are glorious, peaceful, and rejuvenating.

And they are all something each of us should be doing.

We all need to be stepping on stones through the portal of spending quality time with ourselves.

To trust oursevles.

And most importantly, to love ourselves.

As the April showers and May flowers continue to show themselves to us, I see even more imagery and opportunities for the stepping stones ahead of me…

…And the portals that are awaiting me to walk through.

So, cheers to the stepping stones and portal that lie ahead of me.

And smiling through the entire journey.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Happy Monday!

Are you ready for a new week?!

We got to experience a solar eclipse this week…how awesome was that?!

And now we get to experience post 260 from yours truly!

Double awesome!

And while the world is at war (literally), it has been even more challenging to find sunshine in the world around me.

With that being said, I decided to share 26 quotes that help me to find the sunshine in life when the clouds above and around me seem extremely dark.

“Speaking kindly to plants helps them grow; imagine what being kind to yourself does.” ~Anonymous

“You are enough.”

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you are really are.” ~E.E. Cummings

“You have to be unique and different and shine in your own way.” ~Lady Gaga

“If you can’t laugh, you won’t make it.” ~Jennifer Love Hewitt

“Owning you story is the bravest thing you will ever do.” ~Brene Brown

“Do not forget your duty to love yourself.” ~Seren Kierkegaard

“A true friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself.” ~Jim Morrison

“Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.” ~Theodore Roosevelt

“You must be the change you wish to see in the world.” ~Gandhi

“It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.” ~William Shakespeare

“Our first and last love is self-love.”

“What matters most is how well you walk through the fire.” ~Charles Bukowski

“You are a song, so make sure you are heard.”

“Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.” ~Judy Garland

“No beauty shines brighter than that of a good heart.”

“I am a slow walker, but I never walk back.” ~Abraham Lincoln

“Dear self, today you will shine.”

“Hope smiles from the threshold of the year to come whispering, it will be happier…” ~Alfred Tennyson

“Gratitude is the memory of the heart.” ~Jean Massieu

“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood.” ~Marie Curie

“Kind words will unlock an iron door.” ~Turkish Proverb

“If you obey all the rules, you miss all the fun.” ~Katherine Hepburn

“Love works miracles in stillness.” ~Herbert Read

“Unselfish and noble acts are the most radiant epochs in the biography of souls.” ~David Thomas

“Be curious, not judgmental.” ~Walt Whitman

There you have it.

Some of my favorite quotes that help me to find the sunshine when the worlds’ news wants to take us down.

Share your favorites with me!

Cheers to a week ahead that I hope will help you find some sunshine and light.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Hi folks!

Happy new week!

Happy Monday!

Happy second week of April!

It has been a whirlwind of a week to say the least!

Have I used enough exclamation points yet?!

Anyhoo, it definitely feels like Spring has sprung with all of the rain Mother Nature has given us recently.

Now we just have to wait for the May flowers.

I’ve been dozing off several times this evening while writing this post, so I tried to keep it short and sweet.

I finally had the opportunity to watch the newest animated Disney movie last night from the comfort of my couch.

It is called Wish and what a beautiful movie it was.

It’s crazy looking at the reviews online of all the people who didn’t enjoy it.

And if you are one of those people, let’s have a conversation to discuss because differing opinions can bring about healthy and much-needed dialogue.

What did watching this movie make me feel in my soul?

Also, quick side note…I LOVED the music too.

Watching this movie helped me…

1. Re-iterate the notion that you should never let your unique personality dull in shine.
2. That you should always be curious, ask questions, and dialogue with others even if they don’t share the same opinion.
3. To always be honest with others, but most importantly, to be honest with yourself.
4. To always fight for what you believe in.
5. To exude passion, love, and kindness to attract your tribe.
6. To not be afraid to let go of others in life who don’t jive with your energy and needs.
7. To never ever stop wishing.

In another two months (approximately), you will get to know, see, and hear about a wish that I almost gave up on.

Never stop wishing.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Hi folks!

Happy Monday!

No April Fool’s joke here…no new post to read, so you’ll have to come back next week!

There is exciting news in life happening this week, but you’ll have to keep your eyes peeled about that in the coming weeks.

I promise it will be worth the wait.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!