Mr. Sunshine Smiles

Well, we made it to another week. I hope all of you are staying safe and healthy as we continue to live out this pandemic in quarantine. And as a reminder, I would like to re-iterate the below before I get started on this week’s post.

My heart goes out to those who have passed away from this virus. My heart goes out to all of those who are currently suffering and fighting to get well. My heart goes out to everyone who has been directly and indirectly affected by this virus. My heart goes out to all people who are working the front lines to restore health and well-being to the world around us. My heart goes out to all of us who are working to navigate the unknown on the daily with feelings of anxiety and despair.

Well, I’m not wasting any time in this week’s post, so buckle your seat belts and get ready because this week, I’m laying it all out on the table. Real and raw.

On Saturday night, I put my body vertical on the couch like I normally do around 11pm and flipped on my usual go-to evening episodes of The Golden Girls. And as I laid there, I had a very weird sensation that something was stuck in my throat and I couldn’t get it to go away. I kept trying to swallow the saliva that my mouth was creating (TMI I know…sorry not sorry), but it wasn’t helping.

Somehow, I magically drifted off into a slumber and when my eyes flipped awake, I could see it was just before midnight and Betty White was delivering a punch line as the audience cackled. The only difference was that I wasn’t cackling along with her like I usually do. I was so focused on the feeling in my throat.

In classic fashion, I took to Google and typed in the search bar “ways to remove food stuck in throat” and immediately started to read the list of suggestions that were returned from my search on the device I was holding in the palm of my hand.

Needless to say that I tried so many different things that list mentioned including Ginger Ale, big gulps of water, moist/soft foods (yogurt), coughing (essentially trying to gag myself), and even a teaspoon of butter. Yes, that’s correct. Butter. Gross. Nothing worked and I spent all night tossing and turning on the couch thinking about the sensation I was feeling and how to get rid of it.

Anyhoo, long story short…I barely slept at all and I ended up scheduling a Teledoc appointment (which is an incredible service by the way) and was given a prescription for Nexium to help treat what is thought to be a minor case of acid reflux. A huge thank you to Adrienne of McElroy Pharmacy for traveling into the shop on a day when they were closed to help me out.

The point of this story is not to have a pity party in my honor, but rather something on a much deeper level.

I felt helpless. I felt panic.

But above all, I felt lost.

I’m not even 100% sure when this pandemic and quarantine situation officially started, but if my calculations are correct, I believe we are coming up on the approximate two month mark.

And honestly, I feel like I’ve lost some of the essence of Mr. Sunshine.

Something just doesn’t feel right, so I figured this week, I would just start from the beginning…because we are told that it is a good place to start.

So, I apologize in advance for rambling thoughts, but it is just the way this week’s blog post is going to be. Real, raw stories and facts about me as I try to find my way back into the sunshine of sweet.

Hi, my name is JP Welliver. I’m 32 years-old and live in Lancaster, PA. I’m just over 6 foot tall and weigh 155lbs. I have blue eyes, blonde hair, and pretty intense dimples.

The childhood home I grew up in is located in Lititz and is one that I still visit often because family time is something that is extremely important to me. My parents, Gil and Carol raised me on strong morals of love, faith, kindness, and taught me to always do what is right.

My brother, Will is someone who I didn’t always get along with or see eye to eye with growing up and while we did our share of raising voices and fighting, he is someone that is actually pretty cool. It has been a true pleasure getting to witness him become a loving father with my sister-in-law, Mindy and their adorable baby girl, Mackenzie.

In elementary school, I was often made of fun for multiple reasons whether it was because of the clothes I wore or just for the fact that I was more feminine. Looking back, it is not something that really phases me because it is something that helped me to shape who I am today, but in the moment of those days where people were so inconsiderate of others’ and their feelings, it hurt the heart.

Ready for an elementary school story that I’ve never told another soul?

Well, read on.

During my time in the first grade, I had a huge crush on this one girl. Obviously, I will not reveal her name, but for the purpose of this post, we will call her “Jane Doe.” Well, during this time of first grade, Disney had released Pocahontas and I was obviously obsessed with the movie. This was also one of the many reasons why I was made fun of…because you know…Disney princesses…boys aren’t supposed to like them. It’s not “natural.”

Anyhoo, I digress.

So, long story short (I’m using this phrase a lot in this post), I drew this girl a picture of Pocahontas and gave it to her one day at recess in front of her friends. And, after I handed that picture to her, she took it, walked over to the trash can, and threw it away.

My heart was crushed. It felt as if I had just been punched in the stomach.

Flash forward to middle school where life didn’t really get much better as far as the being made fun of aspect. People were still making fun of me for the clothes I wore and being feminine. Nothing new. It wasn’t breaking news.

Ready for the intense middle school story that I’ve never written for the public eye before?

Well, maybe refill your coffee mug at this point if you have a free moment. And sit down if you aren’t already.

One day, in seventh grade, after gym class, I had a group of “jocks” make fun of me for how skinny I was. And while I didn’t really let it bother me in the moment because I had learned to ignore their comments, it really did hurt. That night, I was so frustrated and mad at both my body and these jocks that I decided to steal a Men’s Workout magazine from Weis Markets. I placed the magazine under my sweatshirt strategically so that it wouldn’t fall out unexpectedly. I dreamed of being muscular like the male models that were pictured in the magazine and had high hopes of one day being able to not get made fun of for my skinny minny body type.

Well, that week I felt so guilty and I got to the point where I just couldn’t take it anymore. So, I returned to the Weis Markets with the magazine in a large, manilla envelope and went to the service desk. I handed the envelope to the worker letting them know that I had shoplifted it from their store earlier in the week and also handed them the amount of money that the magazine would’ve cost if I were to have purchased it.

And that’s that. On to the high school years.

The high school years (at least after ninth grade), were where I really started to find myself and get more comfortable with myself. The real defining moment for me was the Spring of my junior year (2005) when I admitted to one boy from our music department that I was gay and had a huge crush on him.

And while that particular individual did not swing that way or share the same feelings (story of my life), he was extremely happy for me admitting and being honest with myself. None of my friends were surprised. If anything, it was relief for them that I had finally discovered this was who I was.

Senior year of high school and the Summer before leaving for college were a bit difficult for me because of the disconnect that I was experiencing with my parents over my sexuality. It was territory that was new for all of us and waters that I didn’t know how to navigate and it often ended in frustration and yelling. Fast forward to today and my parents are fully supportive more than ever and I couldn’t be more thankful for all of their never-ending support, guidance, and love. If only everyone in this world could have parents as amazing and loving as them.

Press ahead to my college years at Penn State where I spent 4 wonderful years of life that I would go back and re-live in a heartbeat. Here are a few rapid fire facts for you from my college years.

1. I became part of a show choir group, The Singing Lions which I credit for keeping me at Penn State. Had it not been for their support, love, and friendship, I would’ve left to come back home and start back at square one. They are also the ones whom are credited with giving me the Mr. Sunshine nickname that has still stuck to this very day.

2. One very vivid memory I have at college (that also involves adult beverages), was at a cast party after a production of Crazy For You that involved Hawaiian Punch, vodka, and a white carpet. You do the math because I don’t think I need to put together the elements for you to figure out the answer to the equation.

3. I also have one very vivid memory of becoming very ill at the Indigo Bar downtown. I have Elyse, Marissa, Jolie, Ashley, and Jimmy to thank for coming to my rescue that night because I was very much a hot mess and they were kind and compassionate enough to put up with me that evening. Ask any one of them and I’m sure they will tell you it was not my best moment.

4. I went into college wanting to major in Public Relations/Broadcast Journalism because I wanted to become the next Matt Lauer. The night that I found out I didn’t get into either major because my GPA was not high enough was while on Spring Break Tour with The Singing Lions. We were all staying at different alumni homes and I happened to be with a very wealthy family that actually had an elevator in their home. All I can say is thank goodness for the king-size bed and what seemed to be a million pillows that decorated the headboard. Those pillows were the comfort for me that fateful evening to bury my disappointment.

5. I used to love playing April Fool’s jokes on people and one of my best ones to this day was when I told my college friends that I was being dismissed from the College of Communications because of having too low of a GPA. I even went as far as to forge an official-looking letter to show everyone when they didn’t believe me. I had several people going with that one and to this day, haven’t come up with anything quite as good.

Flash forward to now…my adult life…post college years. Here are even more rapid fire facts that you may or may not already know about me. This is all part of the rambling, raw thoughts that I mentioned would be happening in this week’s post. Once again…sorry not sorry.

1. I do not like to be in the passenger seat of a car when a driver is speeding at more than 10mph over the limit. It makes me extremely uncomfortable, nervous, and freaked out. So, if I’m a passenger in your car, please don’t speed.

2. I didn’t have a lot of money saved when I went to buy my house in 2016. In fact, I didn’t really have any money saved. In truth, I did things a little backwards and rushed into my decision of buying. But then again, I like to be unique and opposite of what the “rule book” tells us.

3. In 2016, I was out in Lancaster City and got very sick. Somehow, I got into an Uber that took me back to the house in Lititz that I was living at with Elyse and Marissa. I struggled getting into the door and once in, I fell down on the kitchen floor and just laid there. Elyse was not home and Marissa was out with some friends. She got home to discover me on the floor and immediately threw me into the shower. I think that moment freaked us both out a lot. She displayed true friendship that evening (like she has over the years so many times) and I will be forever grateful.

4. I work three jobs to support myself as a single, gay man in society. I love working and keeping busy and find myself getting annoyed when people tell me that I work too much.

5. I get irritated when people tell me that I need to find a boyfriend. No, I do not. While society might tell us that we need to have a partner in life to be happy, I disagree 150%. I find myself thriving with the friendships that I have built up in my life and do not feel that dating is something that needs added into my life. It has never been a priority for me and I don’t see it becoming one in the near future. So, get off your high horse and stop telling me I need a man in my life.

6. I don’t really like expensive things nor do I find joy in wealth or material objects. I would much rather save the money I work hard for or use it to better the lives of others in the world around me. I am the type of person that will wear my shoes until they are falling apart or wear my shirt until all the buttons fall off before I even think about buying new ones.

7. I don’t need fancy, expensive trips or foods. Give me the simplicity of a beach and a cheap hotel with family and friends and I’m good to go. In addition, give me cheap, fried unhealthy food that costs $5.00 as opposed to the healthy option that costs three times as much.

8. I’m deathly afraid of spiders…doesn’t matter if they are small, medium, or large. One size fits all in the scare meter for me.

9. While I am definitely an outgoing and extroverted person, there are days and moments in my life where the last thing that I want to do is interact with humans. This is a feeling that I usually convey to others through direct texts or via a very quiet, non-talkative personality.

10. I’ve found it much harder in the past couple of weeks of this pandemic to not get stressed out or drained. In my personal opinion, people have become even more rude than before and seem to have lost any sense of love, compassion, kindness, and empathy. It deeply saddens me in the soul.

11. Each time I see a post on social media that includes the phrase “my person” or some other form of PDA, mushy, romantic descriptions/words/text, I get annoyed. No one’s life is perfect, so stop trying to tell the world that it is through the use of fancy filters and hashtags.

12. I apologize in advance for this one because it might be TMI, but I’m laying it all out there. At 32, I’m still a virgin and proud of it. What saddens me most about this fact is that people usually don’t believe me when I tell them.

13. Listening to Katy Perry’s Firework always makes me feel better no matter how old the song is.

14. Another one of my biggest struggles that I deal with on the daily in my life (especially right now with all the extra time we have to think and let our minds wander) is the aspect of feeling as if I don’t fit in, specifically when I’m in a group setting. As the world of adulting continues and I evolve as an individual, I find myself thinking more and more about my morals and ideals that I’m passionate about and fight for in life. And with that evolution also come the thoughts of who truly belongs in my life and those who might need to start getting phased out.

15. I do not feel fulfilled when I’m not doing something to help others. The fact that I’m not doing anything this year to aid with pediatric cancer research is something that I’m really feeling the void with. Helping others is just something that is a part of my blood and when I’m not actively doing that, it leaves me feeling empty. It makes me feel lost.

So, what was the point of this blog post? What was the point of my rambling, raw thoughts?

Well, it was to convey the point that I feel lost as Mr. Sunshine at the moment with this pandemic going on. I feel helpless in trying to figure out where I belong in the field of trying to help others. I thought by sharing some very personal facts and stories about myself while starting from the beginning and working up to current day of how I’ve evolved would be a way for me to reflect and give me some guidance on this path of trying to navigate where Mr. Sunshine fits in with the COVID-19 crisis.

The sunshine struggle of sweet is very real for me right now and one that will continue for me as we all work our way into “the new normal.”

Sorry for the word vomit of rambling thoughts. Oh, and in case I didn’t mention it before, I really miss hugs. Like…a lot.

So, thanks for sticking with me during all the crazy times and continuing to support me with love and kindness. Thanks for reading and coming back to read week after week.

I can only hope that both you, me, and everyone else in the communities and world around us will come out of what we are currently experiencing even stronger and more determined than before.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Uncertainty.

Anxious.

Unknown.

Social Distancing.

Fearful.

Uneasy.

Concerned.

Worried.

These words along with many others have now decided to creep their way into our vocabulary as we continue to live out this quarantine.

And, if we are being honest, there have definitely been some moments where this quarantine has gotten the best of me.

This past week, I let myself down by feeling anxious about things that don’t matter…things outside of my control. It was a clear indication that I needed a mental recharge. A push of the reset button so to speak.

What’s funny though is that in these moments of unknown, uncertainty, and anxiety that I (along with many of you) are feeling, I get a chance to step back and discover joy in simple things even more.

And what’s even better is that simple things seem to find their way into our lives when we need them most.

Here are just a few examples of what I got to experience this week:

On my run around Lancaster City on Monday, I came across this beautifully designed sidewalk with a quote that was just what I needed to hear. How perfect of a moment it was for me to witness this. And how perfect of a reminder that we all need during these current times that we are experiencing. Just remember, that through it all, every little thing is gonna be alright.

And, as if that sidewalk quote wasn’t perfect enough, I came across the below also during my run through Lancaster City. The simplest of words, but the greatest of meanings. Just don’t forget that with hope we can do anything. The darkness might be showing its ugly face to us on the daily, but we have to remember to combat it with the hope that we find within ourselves…deep inside our heart and soul.

And while it didn’t feel like Easter this year, I was able to still worship with my church family virtually. Vicar Angie reminded us that Easter is not just one day, buy everyday. The beauty, love, and hope of God and his resurrection for us can be found in the simplest of things every single day. I had the opportunity to see some members of the church in person since we did a social distance drive by allowing members to place fresh flowers by the cross. It was an emotional moment and realization for me because I can’t wait to be able to worship in person with them again–to sing my heart out with them again, to smile with them again, to just be together again.

In the coming weeks, each time I feel myself starting to feel like one of the words that I listed in the beginning of this post, I will plan to do the following:

Stop, drop, and breathe.

And, coupled with this mantra will be the one that I continue to partake in each day that I get up to live out my life:

Begin each day with a grateful heart.

Because even though we are living in a world of unknown at the moment, there is so much in our lives that we should be grateful for.

What am I grateful for? There are just too many things to mention, but here are just a few:

-My family and friends that make my life extraordinary with their love, compassion, and laughs.

-My jobs that allow me to continue working from home during this challenging time.

-My church family that builds each other up in faith, compassion, and kindness.

-The roof over my head that keeps me safe, warm, and comfortable.

And the list goes on and on…you get the picture.

I don’t know how long what we are experiencing will last.

I don’t know what the future holds in store for us.

But what I do know is that if you are feeling thoughts of anxiety and fear, that I would encourage you to join me in stopping, dropping, and breathing.

And to begin each day with a grateful heart because it will help give you both the mental recharge and reset you need to make it through the days ahead.

Stay safe. Stay healthy. And remember to take a moment to thank all those helping in the COVID-19 pandemic.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, folks. We have officially started the first full week of April. It certainly doesn’t feel like Easter is only days away, but the calendar that I cross off each day on the wall of my house and in my planner certainly aren’t lying.

It’s funny because a lot of weeks, I don’t feel inspired to write the words that you read on a newly-released Monday blog until the Sunday before. And most times, it is right before the bewitching hour of 12 midnight when I turn into a pumpkin…

…or in most cases, the bewitching hour that gives me a second wind.

But that is another story for another week.

And, before I get any further on this week’s blog post, I would like to re-iterate a few sentences from last week’s blog post that I want to stress each week moving forward.

My heart goes out to those who have passed away from this virus. My heart goes out to all of those who are currently suffering and fighting to get well. My heart goes out to everyone who has been directly and indirectly affected by this virus. My heart goes out to all people who are working the front lines to restore health and well-being to the world around us. My heart goes out to all of us who are working to navigate the unknown on the daily with feelings of anxiety and despair.”

It’s hard to believe that we are anticipated to be in quarantine through the end of April…and that isn’t even something that is guaranteed especially given the circumstances of how things change on the daily.

And as I sit looking through the window to an outside world in lock down of fear, panic, and unknown, I look to myself and realize that during these last couple of weeks of quarantine, I’ve learned and solidified a few things about myself that I share with you today.

I’ve always worn my heart on my sleeve and what I’ve experienced the past couple of weeks is no different. If anything, this quarantine has helped strip me of any insecurities that might have still be lingering around Sunshine Cottage.

So, fasten your seat belts and get ready to travel with me through the twists and turns of the tracks from my quarantine life. Sounds like a reality show doesn’t it?!

What I’ve learned about myself from the quarantine.

1. I still do not enjoy cooking anymore than I did prior to quarantine life. But like seriously…give me frozen TV dinners or Campbell’s chili that I can heat up in the microwave. Go ahead. Judge me. I don’t care. Byeeeeeeeeee.
2. I am not a work at home person. While I’m certainly both grateful and blessed that I have the opportunity to continue working during this time, I just am not someone who could do this long-term on the daily. I’m ever so grateful for technology and the video chats I’ve been able to experience with coworkers, but there is just something about the office atmosphere that really warms my heart and ignites my soul. And the day when we get back there…I might just stand by my desk and cry tears of joy.
3. Even with extra time on my hands, I still have not found my green thumb. Feel free to walk by my house at any given time and you will experience a small square patch of grass that is great for hiding Easter eggs right now and weeds that could afford some tending to by delicate hands that are just not on the list of things Mr. Sunshine enjoys. Sorry not sorry. And once again, you can judge me if you will, but outside beautifying of the casa has never been something important to me. Not a priority. I mean…I love watching HGTV, but when it comes to the real thing, I’m like…BYEEEEEEE.
4. I miss working and being at the theater. The Ephrata Performing Arts Center has become a second home to me and not being involved in a show is incredibly hard. I’m currently scheduled to stage manage a Summer play production and I hope and pray that it is something that can still be produced. Having the fast-paced schedule of rehearsals helps me to thrive in life by completing tasks in an efficient, timely manner. And I miss the family feel that comes from seeing the smiling faces of the friends that I’ve made over the decade of time I’ve been involved with productions since my first one in 2010.
5. I very much enjoy alone time. While I am very much an extrovert and outgoing person…breaking news I know…it’s like jaw drop to the floor information, I’ve learned that I need a little bit of time every now and then away from the hustle and bustle to be alone. To disconnect from my phone and just be me. Color, read, meditate, lay on the floor and close my eyes, cuddle in a blanket on the couch…the possibilities are endless. And I’m not saying that I don’t enjoy time with people because I do–I love socializing and talking and getting to know others, but the alone time is something that I must do for myself in order to balance out the perfect harmony of the Mr. Sunshine personality.
6. I have found an even greater appreciation for my friends and family. We should never take anything for granted these days and experiencing this pandemic has really made me look at the people in my life around me. Who are the ones that truly matter? Who are the ones that are actually pushing me to be a better person? Who are the ones that take me for granted? If you haven’t taken a few moments in your life during this quarantine to think about who in your life is important and who in your life doesn’t belong, I encourage you to do so. It will help your personal, spiritual, and mental growth as an individual.
7. I miss hugging people. Like a lot. I’m a natural hugger of people (even if it is someone that I just met) and a natural pecker on the cheek. It’s just who I am…and I embrace it. But this time of not being able to show that love and express it in physical ways that are most comfortable for me has been extremely hard. Not receiving a hug from my mom whenever I visit is just difficult. Not being able to hug my friends that I love and miss is borderline sadness, pit in stomach. I can’t wait for the day when I can do this again. It might be another one of those moments where I hug and refuse to let go of you for at least 2 minutes, so I apologize in advance. Make sure you tell people in your life that you love them and appreciate them, especially now. Don’t take anything for granted.
8. I like simple things. Give me my Golden Girls every night on Hulu (even if I seen each episode 25,000 times), some crayons and coloring books to pass the time, and a good book to cuddle up with and I’m set. I don’t need luxurious or expensive “stuff”–so please…take a mental note. Mr. Sunshine is a simpleton.
9. I am not truly thriving in my life or truly fulfilled if I am not helping others. I’m a doer of kindness. I’m a doer of spreading sunshine. And if I’m not doing that, I just don’t feel like myself. So MARK MY WORDS. By the time this pandemic is all said and done, I will…and I mean WILL have a new task to release for changing the world. You can bet your bottom dollar. And it won’t disappoint. My true passion in this world comes from helping others and bringing joy to the lives of others and being quarantined has really brought to light that fact even more so than what was already possibly staring in my face. So, be on the lookout because Mr. Sunshine will be releasing something come 2021. But until that time, you will just have to wait.

So, what’s this all to say? I’m imperfect and I embrace the imperfection? Yes, there might be weeds in the front and back yard, dust on the floor, paint chips on the wall, mismatched pillows on the couch, and picture frames that aren’t hanging straight on the walls…and if that is something you are going to judge me on…well then…maybe you aren’t deserving of Mr. Sunshine. Imperfections make us beautiful humans and during this time of quarantine and self reflection, maybe you can also learn to embrace the imperfections around you and in your life.

Well, we’ve arrived back at the station. Hope you enjoyed your ride and getting to experience some of the twists and turns of my quarantine life that have helped me to solidify who Mr. Sunshine truly is.

Please stay safe, stay home, tell others in your life you love them., and have the faith to pray that all of this will be over sooner rather than later.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, here we are.

Another week in the books.

Another week in the books where our new normal continues to be social distancing, putting ourselves in quarantine mode, and only venturing out for necessities like groceries where the visual is shelves usually empty of pasta, cereal, rice, and paper towels.

I know I’m not the only one who never would’ve guessed our 2020 would be going like this.

This week’s blog post is an open ‘thank you’ letter to the COVID-19 from the perspective of Mr. Sunshine and the positives that I’ve seen come out of this pandemic that we are experiencing.

And before, I begin that letter, I would liked to say the following:

My heart goes out to those who have passed away from this virus. My heart goes out to all of those who are currently suffering and fighting to get well. My heart goes out to everyone who has been directly and indirectly affected by this virus. My heart goes out to all people who are working the front lines to restore health and well-being to the world around us. My heart goes out to all of us who are working to navigate the unknown on the daily with feelings of anxiety and despair.

Dear COVID-19,

I don’t think anyone would’ve realized that you would be overtaking our lives so much in this year of 2020; however, you definitely proved us wrong.

You’ve managed to wreck havoc not only on our Country, but all over the world. You’ve managed to ignite feelings of panic, anxiety, and worry among millions of individuals as they try to navigate the unknown.

You’ve managed to bring words into our daily vocabulary, which include but are not limited to ‘quarantine,’ ‘social distancing,’ ‘pandemic,’ ‘epidemic,’ ‘stay at home,’ and ‘coronavirus’ just to name a few.

You’ve forced countries, states, and counties to lock down and force individuals to only go out of their houses for essential needs and work.

You’ve forced multiple companies to lay off workers and send them home with no employment because the future is so unknown.

You’ve created a wave of negativity that floods our media outlets on the daily with no end in sight.

But, despite all that I’ve listed above, there are several things that I must thank you for.

1. Thank you for forcing people out of their comfort zone, getting them to work together, and to stretch their minds to be creative. From the inventions that people have created to combat this disease, those sewing masks, breweries making hand sanitizer, fitness trainers making at home workouts to keep people active, restaurants becoming creative with takeout and delivery service, churches going virtual with daily services and events to keep community connected…there are just so many beautiful things that have come out of this and I for one am excited to see the creative inventions still to come.
2. Thank you for forcing me out of my comfort zone to work from home. While I’m not the biggest fan of it, I’m extremely grateful and blessed that I’m still able to do it during this trying time. Thank you for forcing use technology to connect with coworkers as we try to get through each day. Rest assured though, I will be doing a happy dance for days when the time comes to head back to the office.
3. Thank you for forcing me to pick up my phone and reach out to others in my life–some of who, I rarely even talk to on the daily. The events that you have unfolded before us has been an excellent reminder that life is precious and that we should always take every chance we get to tell someone we love them, appreciate them, or that we are just thinking about them. Simple things can the greatest joys. Thank you for helping me to realize even harder how much I love those around me in my life. And thank you for helping me to realize how special a hug from one of those individuals can truly be—it can wrap me in feelings of warmth and comfort when everything around seems cold and dreary. When this is all said and done, I honestly will be so excited to squeeze those in my life I appreciate you such heart and love.
4. Thank you for making people realize that money does not buy happiness and that generosity, compassion, and helping others are the true way in this world to be fulfilled. While I believe that my part in all of this at the moment is to help others feel positive and happy, I’m so grateful to see and hear so many stories of courage and helping others that pop up out of all the areas fighting against you.
5. Finally, I must thank you for getting me to come out of hibernation from the social media world. While my original plan was to only come back in August, I thought a lot about what was happening in the world. I prayed a lot and realized that coming back to social media was something that I needed to do. Living with the persona of Mr. Sunshine has always been extremely important to me and right now, it seems to be something that is needed for them ever. I’m a fighter for love, kindness, compassion, and positive vibes and my will and drive to do that now is more than ever.

Last night, I was watching the animated movie Wonder Park (which I would highly recommend if you haven’t seen it) and in the beginning of the movie, the below quote spoke to me very deeply because it is exactly what I personally am experiencing throughout this pandemic.

“I know this is scary…but you keep that little light inside of you shining bright.”

As we continue to live out the days ahead full of unknown, may we continue to fight with compassion, love, and kindness to keep COVID19 on its toes until it is a thing of the past.

May we continue to have faith during the toughest and darkest moments and always remember that we have family and friends to lean on.

May we continue to be human to each other. To love whole-heartedly and to look inside ourselves for ways that we can help those in need around us.

May we all keep the little light inside ourselves shining for the current world in need.

Sincerely with wishes for health and safety,
Mr. Sunshine

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, folks. We made it to another Monday.

It certainly has been a crazy week to say the least. I sincerely hope that you, your family, and everyone in your life is staying safe and healthy. Also, before I write more, a huge thank you and sense of gratitude to all the healthcare workers (and any other genre of workers) who are working their tails off during this pandemic. In addition, my thoughts are with those who have passed away from COVID19 as well as those who are currently fighting it. We will overcome this even amidst the bumpy road ahead.

As the days linger on, we continue to find the terms “social distancing” and “quarantine” as part of our day-in, day-out vocabulary.

In addition to the vocabulary that we are becoming all too familiar with, it seems that our new favorite past-time is hand washing every chance we get. I’ve learned that singing Happy Birthday or the chorus of my favorite Katy Perry song, Firework are ideal for making sure there is ample time under the hot water as I lather my hands with my favorite Bath & Body Works foaming soaps.

Right now, if I wash my hands in the kitchen sink, I’m enjoying the scent of Winter Spruce while the upstairs bathroom treats me to Vanilla Bean Snowflake.

Anyway, I digress.

Shocker.

It is currently 11:40pm and I’m sitting on my couch with a blanket wrapped around myself, Cran Apple juice in my Wheel of Fortune goblet, The Golden Girls playing in the background, and the stress of trying to get this all done before the clock strikes 12…

…Because at 12 midnight I turn into a pumpkin. Well, actually, I turn into a night owl if we want to get politically correct. There is no such thing as a pumpkin when you’re working with Mr. Sunshine.

Unless it is a Pumpkin Spice Latte…or milkshake.

Oh my goodness…digression again. I’m so sorry. Just trying to keep the mood light and fluffy.

Today, as I did my daily reading from Hoda Kotb’s I Really Needed This Today book, I realized the quote being offered for today (March 23rd) was exactly what I wanted to write about as we all continue to live out the uncertain times amidst confusion and fear.

“Change your thoughts and you can change the world.”
~Norman Vincent Peale

How true these words are to us, especially with everything that is currently happening.

Each day, we have a million different thoughts racing through our head–how will we pay our monthly bills, how much time we need to leave for our morning commute to work in case we hit traffic, if we should buy the half gallon of ice cream at the grocery store…

…that last question should not be a question actually because you should ALWAYS buy the half gallon of ice cream. DUH!

…But the most important question we must answer is the question of how we are going to combat the negative thoughts that pop up in our head and thrown in our path.

Are you going to be the person who chases down the negative thoughts and lets them overtake your life?

OR

Are you going to be the person who changes the way you look at them and spins it into something positive to make the world a better place?

There is no doubt that the world we are living in right now is scary and challenging. Our normal way of life has been broken and some days, it can be confusing or difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

But that light is at the end of the tunnel and I refuse to let the negative thoughts and energy that is around us take over my life.

Take a look at some of the positives that have come out of this pandemic that we are currently experiencing together. Here are just a few:

1. People have come together to support local businesses that have shut down or are struggling.
2. People have learned how to reach out to one another via different media to check-in and make sure they are okay.
3. People around the world have used their creative minds to come up with ways on how to keep social interaction going while working from home, creating cyber, online church services to keep faith alive, and helping people stay fit and healthy with live-streaming fitness workouts that can be done in the comfort of home while the gyms are closed.

There are SO many other positives that are too numerous to mention, but I guarantee if you open your eyes just a little, you will find them.

I’m sick of opening the news and only seeing the negatice stories. It’s like a frenzy of chaotic multitude that just sucks you in and strangles you of breath.

Which is why I’ll continue to channel the positive to change the world, to better the lives of those around me, and share some love and sunshine when it is needed most.

During this time of fear, let us push forward with courage.

Let us push forward with learning how to be human to ALL of humanity.

Let us push forward to change our thoughts to change the world.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, I can honestly say that this has been one of the most insane weeks on record that I think I’ve ever experienced in my 32 years of life on this Earth.

And it seems like the insanity and craziness has no end in sight.

I’ve literally seen viral videos of people fighting over toilet paper. FIGHTING. It’s literally like Black Friday all over again, but this time around, it seems 10 times worse. It’s disheartening.

Actually, my heart physically sinks inside because it makes me so upset.

As the news about this pandemic continues to flood our day-to-day culture (and please don’t get me started on the media because I will go off), I feel so many different emotions.

My natural reaction to all of this is sadness because there are so many people who are infected that won’t be able to get the proper care or supplies they need because those that aren’t infected are hoarding items like the apocalypse is on the horizon.

My second reaction is worry because both of my parents are over the age of 60.

My third reaction is anger because the media is feeding upon every little detail that is happening and seems to be (at least in my mind) blowing this all way out of proportion.

Like, stop it. You’re causing the entire world to panic.

However, among all the frenzy, craziness, and panic, I’m reminded that above all, I must have faith.

Because without it, we are nothing.

Mary McLeod once said the following and how true it rings for me today as we go through the current events of the world together.

“Without faith, nothing is possible. With it, nothing is impossible.”

How true these words are and while it seems virtually impossible to think about them at a time like that of which we are experiencing currently, they are ones that I must keep in the back of my mind as I live out life on the daily these next few weeks.

While I know that religion is not everyone’s thing, I found some really powerful solace in the lyrics of a hymn we sang today that I wanted to share. The hymn, Great Is Thy Faithfulness, has some beautiful lyrics that remind me to pause and know that in times of need, we will always be provided for.

Great is Thy faithfulness
Morning by morning new mercies I see
And all I have needed Thy hand hath provided
Great is Thy faithfulness
Lord unto me

As I sit here writing this blog post on a comfortable recliner in my parents’ home, I look outside the window and see the sunshine brightly revealing its rays across the green grass and blue skies.

And seeing the sunshine signals the reminder to me that even in times of fear and uncertainty, I must stay strong for those around me who can’t and be the sunshine amdist the grips of fear and gray that are clutching our country.

Tell one, two, three, or ten people in your life that you love them.

I share with you one last prayer that was shared by our church Vicar, Angela Hammer this past week at our weekly council meeting and also at our Sunday morning church service.

May we are merely inconvenieced,
Remember those whose lives are at stake.
May we who have no risk factors,
Remember those most vulnerable.
May we who have the luxury of working from home,
Remember those who must choose between preserving their health or making their rent.
May we who have the flexibility to care for our children when their schools close,
Remember those who have no options.
May we who have to cancel our trips,
Remember those that have no safe place to go.
May we who are losing our margin money in the tumult of the economic market,
Remember those who have no margin at all.
May we who settle in for a quarantine at home,
Remember those who have no home.
As fear grips our country, let us choose love.
During this time when we cannot physically wrap our arms around each other, let us yet find ways to be the loving embrace of God to our neighbors.

But above all, have faith.

Stay safe.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, here we are yet again!

Another week has passed and another Monday has decided to show itself. And in the past 7 days we have seen the clocks turn forward, Mother Nature shower us with both rain and hot sun, the Stock Market do its wild roller coaster ride, and stories about the Coronavirus continue to grow.

Everything just seems out of whack and everyone in the world appears to be in full-blown panic mode.

Actually, it is even worse than full-blown panic mode.

And Mr. Sunshine only has one thing to say…

…EVERYONE TAKE A CHILL PILL.

Like, seriously.

Chill.

Out.

Period.

The panic that the media is bringing to our lives with the current world happenings is absolutely insane. And it is making so many people in this world go into a frenzy that is driving me nuts.

My every day conversations are now flooded with the sentence of “Yes, we have no hand sanitizer.”

I’m not worried about getting sick.

That’s right.

You heard it here first.

BREAKING NEWS.

What I’m actually concerned about is the people who are freaking out, not reading the facts (or knowing them), and not taking care of themselves.

Like, wash your hands people. It’s not rocket science.

So, in the coming weeks I’ll just be here…doing same old, same old. Business as per the usual for Mr. Sunshine.

I’ll continue to fall asleep to The Golden Girls, refuse to get out of my warm blanket during those cold mornings, laugh at the simple things, say I love you to the people I appreciate, and sing loudly to all the Kelly Clarkson, Katy Perry, Kesha, and Lady Gaga songs on my Apple Music playlists as I make my morning commute to work.

And I’ll continue to try and bring the sunshine to the world to each individual I meet with each passing day.

Oh, and I’ll continue to listen to this newest song by Katy Perry…because I’m loving it.

Well, that’s all I have this week.

Remember to wash those hands and to take a chill pill.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, here we are! Yet another month of 2020 has come and gone and another new one is beginning. It is officially March and the million dollar question is…

Where is the snow?! Where is the Winter weather?!

TWO million dollar questions! SURPRISE!

And, if you have answers to both of these million dollar questions, you will win the special prize…

Which ISN’T a million dollars!

Quite honestly though, if we are being 100% upfront and transparent, I am not mad with the fact that we have had very little snow.

I dislike shoveling it, I dislike driving in it, and I dislike shoveling it.

Did I mention that I dislike shoveling it?!

In actuality though, I’ll be honest–I haven’t really had any beef with this year’s Winter because it actually has been kind of mild and Mother Nature even teased us with some beautiful Spring weather–like what is happening?!

She. Be. Confused.

But, regardless of the weather that she is sending our way, it doesn’t mean that I don’t still enjoy them Winter nights in the house with me, myself, and my blanket.

And you know what?!

It’s glorious.

Incredibly glorious.

I’m not going to lie, but the negative news about Corona virus and the falling stock market has me a bit anxious, on edge, getting frustrated.

Our world feeds upon this sensationalism of making every happening event around us sound a million times worse than it really is. And it causes people to uproar in a panic.

They are really good at too because I’m falling into that category of “uproar panic” some days.

Quite frankly, I’m sick of this ::insert bad word that starts with S here::

But the one thing that remains a constant regardless of what Mother Nature throws our way and how the media is treating the news stories around us is my love for them Winter nights in my casa.

With all the crap that is happening right now in the news, I physically become ill thinking about it and realize that a night in solitude to laugh, relax, or do whatever I feel is more than needed.

My recipe for total relaxation? It is actually quite simple.

My blanket, my phone on Do Not Disturb, The Golden Girls playing one the TV, and my favorite ice cream flavor. And sometimes, I substitute The Golden Girls for a good read too sometimes. These are the elements that comprise the winning formula to shut out the world and have moments of laughter, happiness, and quiet.

It seems like the news of negative energy will not be going away anytime soon, so it’s time to buckle down and figure out your personal formula to stay smiling and happy.

Then Winter nights are more important than ever, so make sure you don’t take them for granted.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!

Well, hey there folks! Yet another week has gone by and we are just one week away from a new month, which is crazy to think! I know I ask this every year, but where is the time going?!

Like…seriously, though. I feel each day, week, month, and year just drifts by faster and faster. And there is no sign of slowing down in sight.

Does anyone know the address for Father Time because I would really like to write him a nice letter…well..more like a 5 paragraph essay…actually…a Thesis trying to make valid points of why the time needs to not be going by so fast.

Also, before we get into this week’s post, I have just a fun little Mr. Sunshine fact from the weekend. I had coffee with NO sugar.

Why yes, you did read that right.

NO sugar.

I know. I know. Go circle the day on the calendar because this is a monumental moment that you will never want to forget.

But, I digress.

Let’s get on to this week’s topic.

So, grab your coffee with no sugar (or however you enjoy it best) and read on!

The past couple of weeks have been quite trying, especially this last week. Between some moments in my personal and professional life—I have felt weak, out of place, and defeated.

There isn’t one specific incident or moment to pinpoint why these feelings have been present in my life; however, I do know when they come up, I always look to music for solace, comfort, and courage.

So, this week, I share with you three songs that I have found to be extremely helpful to me in these moments that I mentioned just a few sentences earlier.

My hope is that you will find a few free moments to listen to them and find ways to relate them to your life in some way, shape, or form.

Song #1: “Can We Pretend” by Pink

I won’t be the first one to hide this true feeling, but the world scares me. Everything that is happening outside the doors of our community, towns, cities, states, and countries absolutely terrifies me. The one thing that I haven’t missed about being on social media are the posts of negativity and hatred that infuse and permeate our lives. Listening to this song gives me just a few moments of distraction to pretend that the world of hate doesn’t exist and allows me to drift off into a dream of love and kindness for all. It can’t be that hard, right? Well, each time I bring up the headlines on CNN.com, I just become more and more discouraged.

But, mark my words..,Mr. Sunshine will come back with vengeance this year with the latest tactic to try and change the world to show those that love and kindness will always be more powerful than hate.

Song #2: “Head Above Water” by Avril Lavigne

I have Spotify to thank for this song recommendation because it came up on my playlist randomly. I clearly have been living under a rock because I did not know this piece of musical beauty existed. This one kind of speaks for itself in the lyrics and even claims the title of this week’s post. Each time I hear the lyrics in the power house of Avril’s voice, I remind myself that no matter how bad things might get, it is up to me and me only to change the tides of the water to keep my head afloat. It’s one song that has even found me getting so emotional that tears have been shed.

Song #3: “Courage” by Celine Dion

This is another song that pretty much speaks for itself. Knowing that Celine Dion released this song (and the entire album) after the death of her husband make the lyrics even more real and raw each time I listen. And what powerful lyrics they are. Having courage in my life is so tough at times, especially with the way the world is right now, so this song is such a good reminder. And, with a voice as grand as Celine Dion, there is just no denying that this one will give you ALL THE FEELS and maybe even get you to shed a few tears when you think about a moment in your life where you need to remember to have courage. Also, total side note…saw Celine perform this LIVE this past weekend in Atlantic City and it was life changing.

And, because I forgot, there is one last song that I must add to this list, so BONUS track!

Song #4: “By The Grace of God” by Katy Perry

I happened to post a short teaser video of myself playing this song on the piano last week on Snapchat, so any of you who follow me might have gotten to see that. It is one song that just helps me get out all of the emotions inside me just by tickling the ivories for a few moments. And, this is another power house song (and I will always be a loyal Katy Perry fan), that just gets me right in the heart.

Well, that’s all I have for you this week! I sincerely hope you take a few moments to listen to these songs, add them to your playlists, or even share them with those around you.

Until next time folks…keep your head above water!

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP

Well, I survived another year of my favorite holiday…Valentine’s Day! This is total sarcasm if you couldn’t sense it.

I’ve never understood why we designate one day to love. Shouldn’t all days be about love? And honestly, I can’t handle all the mushy posts and photos about people being together and blah, blah, blah.

Great. Thank you for rubbing it in our faces and feeling the need to show the world what is viewed as the “picture perfect” life.

Byeeeeee.

Anyhow, let’s get moving to this week’s topic.

For those who may or may not know, I just finished a three week run being Music Director of the recent production of Frozen Jr. at Ephrata Performing Arts Center. And each year, on closing day, it has become tradition of the production staff to give speeches to the kids before going out on stage for the final show. This year, as I read over my speech, I felt like it was relevant to share with all of you, so I hope you enjoy and find something to take away from it.

So, grab your cup of coffee, cuddle up with your blanket, and buckle up those seat belts because we are about ready to leave the station!

“It’s funny because as a Music Director, you would think one of the aspects of a Kids for Kids show that I would dread is teaching music with difficult rhythm or lyrics, but in actuality it is coming up with a closing day “send off speech” for a cast of talented individuals that has captivated my heart once again. 

I know we are limited on time and that Jamie really wants to give you 10, so here are three things I want you to take away today. 

1.      Always be true to yourself and listen to your heart. Some of you might already know who you are which is great and some of you might still be exploring and figuring out what is inside your heart, which is awesome. I knew who I was at a very young age, but I did not become open and honest with myself about it until I was 17 and a Junior in high school. If you are struggling, please ask for help and lean on your support system. No one will think any less of you and if they do, they are not worth it. Even at 32, there are moments when I still struggle with how the way the world treats and views me, but it doesn’t keep me from shining brighter or being vulnerable to ask for guidance and help when I need some extra support. You all have such unique individuality to share with the world, so go out there and do. 

2.      Never let anyone bring you down. I know I mentioned this in an email just a week ago that I wish I could say that we live in a world where there is no hatred, bullying, or judgment, but it simply just isn’t true. It exists and it is probably something that always will, which makes me heart sad. At 32, there are still moments when I get called inappropriate names that I can’t mention in a speech and while it hits home for me personally, it also makes me even thicker in my skin as I live out life. Don’t let the nay-sayers in this world bring you down because they do not matter. Dr. Seuss once said, “those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” Your true support system will always follow you wherever you go and be with you whenever you need them most. 

3.      Always be kind to everyone you meet. The late Mr. Rogers once said, “”There are three ways to ultimate success: The first way is to be kind. The second way is to be kind. The third way is to be kind.” As you probably already know, love and kindness are the biggest qualities that I advocate for as Mr. Sunshine. Everyone in this world deserves love and kindness regardless of religion, social status, skin color, ethnicity, sexual identity, or whatever the case may be. Please do not ever forget that. It is SO important, especially now. Smile at the stranger. Think twice before you go to judge someone because you never know what that specific individual might be going through. Be kind. Be kind. And be kind. 

In the last song of this show that is sung together as a full cast, the words go “let’s fill this world with light and love.” How appropriate this is for the year 2020 that we are currently living in. I look outside at this world and see war. I see hate. I see bullying. I see people crying for justice. I see darkness. 

And I look at all of you and I see light. I see the future of this world. I see the possibility for change. Do not take it for granted. Find the fire that is inside of you and let it ignite and grow so that you can share it with the world because YOU DO HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE IT.

Thank you for being such a wonderful cast to work with. Thank you for putting up with my blonde moments of not knowing how to count rhythms, say words or realize that I’m playing the wrong track through the CD player. Thank you to Irving, Pontz, Jamie, Carolyn, Julie, Grant, Dave, and the rest of the production crew for making this such a powerful experience and one that I wouldn’t trade for the world even if it did bring about extra stress in my life and ugly breakouts on my face. Thank you to all of the parent volunteers behind the scenes who have done countless tasks too numerous to mention—you are all angels in our eyes. Thank you to all of YOU who have all brought this production to life over the last 3 weeks and brought light and love to not only each individual that has filled the seats of this theater, but also to me. 

So here’s to one last hurrah and snowstorm as we bring this production to life one last time before we let it go.“

Well, that’s all I have for you this week, folks.

Look. Go. Do.

Sprinkle sunshine always,

JP!